It was ten years ago today that my mother, Jackie, left this world. And I still miss her to this day. Like any mother she was there for me when I had a scrap on my knee or when I needed someone to tell my issues of the day. She always made the best meals whether it was meatloaf or a simple sandwich. I used to say my mom was "my biggest fan". And to this day I still feel like that. Honestly my mom wasn't perfect. She had her battles with alcohol addiction that she tried to fight a couple times. She was even THIS close from beating it but to no avail. And she made her mistakes like the time she took away a boom box I earned and gave it to my brother (which is still a controversial topic in my family). But she was still my biggest fan. I learned on that cold December day in 2003 that people will indeed leave your life, including those who are close to you. But it also showed me to not take life for granted. Yeah I am still learning that but crazy to think that even in death my mom is still teaching me about life. And I am always wondering what she would be thinking about my transition to entertainment. I think she would be proud. And like any other parent she would be scared of me failing or getting hurt. I would say "Oh I wish she was here to see this..." but frankly I think she is here seeing what is happening to me. In her own way she is here cheering me on and at times is there to listen to talk about my issues of the day.
It's been 10 years...and I still miss her.
It's been 10 years...and I still miss her.